Painting

i cant' begin to say how happy it is to paint. i really like painting. Today i put the sky in on the first France canvas. I'm doing a two canvas affair of the skyline of the town in France where i was born. now that i am all but done the first canvas i want to get the second done so i can look at them as two halves. the sky in this one goes from dark to light, and will the sky on the next one be all light, or will i have to change the sky in this one? i really like how the mood of the painting just comes out of the intent of my brush, filled with paint, as it hits the canvas.

AlAnon again

I went to an AlAnon meeting again tonight. I haven't been for a few months, since the summer, i think. I stopped going just before he stopped going to AA. It was good to go again and I think I will go back next week. Tonight's discussion centred around control, and i was able to articulate how it was a control issue that got me to go up and get him rather than leave him to figure it out or to have one of the girls go get him and see him like that. It really was disrespectful to him to assume that he couldn't have figured a way out of where he was.
I also have gratitude, the other discussion from tonight, around the opportunity I was given to remind myself of how much work i have to do around control, and that I can let go, spend my energy on myself, and what needs to happen will do so. I am still really sad that he missed one year sober, tho. I'm trying hard to celebrate 35 days.